The Other Half? I Don't Think So, Diabetes is 90% Mental.

For me, managing my diabetes is relatively straightforward. I take my basal insulin, I count my carbs (kinda) and I bolus. And my outcomes are basically good relative to what I should expect.  But there are the "other factors."  Unfortunately, my life intervenes.  I travel, I have been home only a couple of days over the last three weeks.  I have disturbed sleep and suffer from sleep apnea.  And then there is my job, just like many of you, I have my job.  And it is a source of stress in my life.  Today I woke at 4:15 am to get ready for my meeting today.  I had a hundred people arrive for the meeting that started at 8 am and all kinds of things went wrong.  I didn't get finished til late tonight.  And then my wife wants to have a talk about "our life." So I am sorry about the tardiness of this post.  Sometimes our lives just overwhelm us.

I have to tell you, in my case, I know how to take care of my diabetes.  I can figure out my bolus insulin, I can figure out my mealtime bolus and correct if necessary.  And I am diligent about taking my medications.   But life just sometimes "kicks my butt" and it is just hard.  It is hard to keep up the mental fortitude to take care of myself and even if I have the fortitude to make the right decisions it is very hard to do that when faced when very complicated personal situations.  My diabetes challenge isn't about the mechanical steps necessary to take care of myself.  It is about the mental discipline to do that in the face of files challenges.  For me, diabetes isn't about the half that is mental, it is about the 90% that is mental.